Weigh In Monday # 28

I've had a rocky time of it the past 14 days. I was so upset with myself last week, that I just couldn't deal with weighing myself. Life calmed down a bit over the weekend and I was able to pull things together and step on the scale. I gained 4 pounds. I was surprised at how small the weight gain was, since I felt I'd done nothing but overeat for two weeks.

What set things off was my annual mammogram. The results showed an "irregularity" which they felt was benign, but wanted a repeat in 4 months to make sure there was no change. Now, I'm a breast cancer survivor, going through surgery, chemotherapy and radiation on both of my breasts. So, hearing there was a problem brought so much anxiety, I couldn't deal with it all. To cope, I started eating and just couldn't stop. I was eating so much, I had severe stomach pain. I was so weirded out, I ate things I don't even like, simply because they were handy. I was a total mess!

This Monday, things are a bit better. My logical self has overcome the emotional landslide. Today, I managed to be totally on the healty path for the first time in two weeks. Whew! In times past, this experience would have caused me to give up totally on things and return to slowly killing myself with food. So, small blessings and small lessons learned.